I'm a shy pseudo-Burner.

[blissfish]

Recovering from a major depression is hard.  I feel a lot better, and I have a lot more energy, and I'm ready to do stuff.  But how do I go about getting back into things?  Especially with the Burn community - I was pretty new when I just dropped off the face of the Earth for what, five months?  Now I feel really hesitant to make contact again.  I feel like I failed somehow by not being involved through the beginning of the busiest time of the year. 

Do any of you Burner types know of any leads/AFs who need a somewhat gimpy volunteer (meaning I can't carry heavy loads over distance or walk for a long time on my injured foot)?  I may be on a cane at F/s, but even so I can do assembly/take down, Greeting, manning ice, stuff like that. gyesika, I've emailed Jen I just haven't heard back yet. 

To the Burners on my friends list:  I'm sorry I dropped off the map.  It was me.  Can I come back?

Comments

[juliarandolph.livejournal.com]

Whatever you can do, it's OK, even if that's just keeping your theme camp running smoothly. Or taking care of a Ranger when he's just come off shift.

No one is going to condemn you for needing to drop out for awhile, and if they are, they don't get The Point Of It All.

I know it was you. And I have twinges of whatever, but I'm assured that showing up occasionally with bourbon or dust masks is enough of a pre-event contribution that no one is going to give me any flak. (I think we had this discussion on one of the lists, in fact.) So, I'm not going to be on you for anything, and I'm going to tell you, do what you can, and don't stress what you can't. I think you're being harder on yourself than anyone at Church Night is going to be, seriously; and if you show up gimpy tonight, there will probably be people yelling at you to sit down and not make it worse. :) (OK, maybe that's just me with someone in a totally different organization, but I've been thoroughly scolded for potentially not taking good enough care of myself, and I wouldn't be surprised if people were going to watch out for you that way.)

[blissfish.livejournal.com]

Thanks.
The thinky-thing knows that just jumping back in and doing what I can is all I need to do to start feeling comfortable again, but what kind of crazy person would I be if I heeded the advice of the thinky-thing? I'd have all of this spare time if I didn't quadruple-guess myself about everything.