I'm a shy pseudo-Burner.

[blissfish]

Recovering from a major depression is hard.  I feel a lot better, and I have a lot more energy, and I'm ready to do stuff.  But how do I go about getting back into things?  Especially with the Burn community - I was pretty new when I just dropped off the face of the Earth for what, five months?  Now I feel really hesitant to make contact again.  I feel like I failed somehow by not being involved through the beginning of the busiest time of the year. 

Do any of you Burner types know of any leads/AFs who need a somewhat gimpy volunteer (meaning I can't carry heavy loads over distance or walk for a long time on my injured foot)?  I may be on a cane at F/s, but even so I can do assembly/take down, Greeting, manning ice, stuff like that. gyesika, I've emailed Jen I just haven't heard back yet. 

To the Burners on my friends list:  I'm sorry I dropped off the map.  It was me.  Can I come back?

Comments

[eposia.livejournal.com]

It seems to me that a healthy community in general would support the periodic need of individuals within that community to hermit up. Doubly so for a community with a high percentage of artists of all sorts.

But I can't speak for a community, only for myself. You're welcome at our camp if you wish to visit!

[blissfish.livejournal.com]

I'm hoping so. I recognize my own neurosis, here.

Thank you :) I would like to visit.

[salembroomrider.livejournal.com]

You could volunteer for something like a greeter shift. I'm sort of in the same boat, and while I don't think a greeter shift would particularly suit me, I'm gonna do some of this.

I'll let Jen know she's expecting something from you.. depending on the account and which computer she is at, it can take a while. Especially with no EEEEEE key. :P

[blissfish.livejournal.com]

Yep, greetering sounds like a plan. I'm going to help with PVC as needed, and maybe supply DAFTers with beer and foddstuffs, as we've discussed.

Different Jen - I knew it would be confusing, but I didn't want to put someone's last name in my LJ.

[salembroomrider.livejournal.com]

Doh! I know who you mean now. :) What can I say, I hear about someone waiting to hear back from Jen... :P

[blissfish.livejournal.com]

Hee :) I was planning on doing pre/post-op this year myself, since it suits my temperament as well, but I don't think I'd be able to do the work. Sucktacular.

[izzi13.livejournal.com]

DaFTies ~love~ foodstuffs and beer, darling! And would welcome you back even without that. Come on out to church night tonight. There is voting on street names and other opportunities!
I am limping around myself for past three days, but hope to be over it soon. It is a twisted ankle and bruised foot I got while testing the warehouse waiver.
Love!

[blissfish.livejournal.com]

I'll come out tonight. :) How many people are generally working on the effigy out at the site?

Sorry for your ankle - did the warehouse waiver stand its ground?

[oldstingydragon.livejournal.com]

*squeee!! Foodstuffs and beer! Additionally, Mandie is working on aluminum can Lei's for the effigy, which she certainly needs help with.

But mostly, we'll just be happy to see you. Cause, you know. You've been sick. Or injured. Or a combination thereof. Or hermity. All of which is not in the slightest bit relevant except for the fact that you weren't around, and we noticed and maybe it was good for you, and maybe not.

I think that means we missed you ;)

D

[blissfish.livejournal.com]

Ooh, is Mandie working on that at the warehouse? I can help with that!

Thank you for the sweet comment - it means a lot. :)

[temujin9.livejournal.com]

Greeters, Eschelon for the Rangers, or a Sanctuary shift or two would all fit the bill.

And don't worry about it: there's no group *less* likely to take you to task for momentary flake-out than burners . . .

[blissfish.livejournal.com]

:) Good to know. I know it's just anxiety on my part, but better anxiety expressed than anxiety sat upon and fed.

How are you doing lately?

[temujin9.livejournal.com]

In partial hermitage myself: between personal crap and the recent explosion of contracts, I've been fairly swamped too. Thankfully, I was apparently built for Ranger work, so finding something to contribute is pretty easy.

[blissfish.livejournal.com]

I'm glad to hear you've more contacts (hopefully not sucky ones), and I hope the personal situation is going well. Rangers are awesome. :) Maybe next year I'll be in a good place to go through training.

I ought to chase my husbandy-person to your game.

[temujin9.livejournal.com]

Indeed: you're both quite welcome!

[tanniynim.livejournal.com]

I wanted to say something about us never forgiving you here, but I have to remind myself that MDD is hard to deal with and people sometimes take things out of context.

So, I'll be uncharacteristically pleasant and agree with everyone else that you're welcome back anytime.

[blissfish.livejournal.com]

Thanks :) I imagine all that being nice has left you discombobulated. Do you need puppies to kick? (Stuffed puppies, because I'm a big softy). Babies to roast?

[mielikki.livejournal.com]

I'm more of a Burner hag than an actual Burner, but I agree that this community is a lot more understanding about this sort of thing.

Wanna do a dinner event some fine evening?

[blissfish.livejournal.com]

I would love to do a dinner event some fine evening. :)

[octos.livejournal.com]

Cool. Stacy beat me to it. It was a long day at work today.

[nobodobodon.livejournal.com]

Don't forget about Parking.

And of course you're welcome back. People that remember you well will be glad to see you, those that didn't know you well will not realize you ever left, and people that don't remember you will be happy to meet you for the first time.

What you're doing today is more important to these folks than what you've done before.

[blissfish.livejournal.com]

:) Thanks. I'd forgotten about Parking (or blocked it out, it's hard to tell).

You were in a dream of mine last night. My dream version of you has fascinating things to say.

[nobodobodon.livejournal.com]

Yes? Such as what?

[blissfish.livejournal.com]

Apparently indigo is the key. The key to everything. If I can relax and accept the indigo, and put the indigo into my tea (which you demonstrated carefully) it will all be figured out.

So sayeth my dream-Nobo.

And then we were somewhere else, with willows.

[nobodobodon.livejournal.com]

Very cool.

I'm not sure if actual indigo is safe to consume, but the IDEA of indigo sure is.

EDIT: Apparently, some species are used as an anti-inflammatory analgesic. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Indigofera

[blissfish.livejournal.com]

I didn't know there was actual edible indigo - thanks!

The very word indigo has always moved me - it's so evocative of mystery and centered-ness. And of course the color is an astounding one. And it made a very pretty tea, like the sky just after sunset in a cup.

[juliarandolph.livejournal.com]

Whatever you can do, it's OK, even if that's just keeping your theme camp running smoothly. Or taking care of a Ranger when he's just come off shift.

No one is going to condemn you for needing to drop out for awhile, and if they are, they don't get The Point Of It All.

I know it was you. And I have twinges of whatever, but I'm assured that showing up occasionally with bourbon or dust masks is enough of a pre-event contribution that no one is going to give me any flak. (I think we had this discussion on one of the lists, in fact.) So, I'm not going to be on you for anything, and I'm going to tell you, do what you can, and don't stress what you can't. I think you're being harder on yourself than anyone at Church Night is going to be, seriously; and if you show up gimpy tonight, there will probably be people yelling at you to sit down and not make it worse. :) (OK, maybe that's just me with someone in a totally different organization, but I've been thoroughly scolded for potentially not taking good enough care of myself, and I wouldn't be surprised if people were going to watch out for you that way.)

[blissfish.livejournal.com]

Thanks.
The thinky-thing knows that just jumping back in and doing what I can is all I need to do to start feeling comfortable again, but what kind of crazy person would I be if I heeded the advice of the thinky-thing? I'd have all of this spare time if I didn't quadruple-guess myself about everything.

[jenmarie.livejournal.com]

I just mailed heatherthegreat about what greeter shifts may be available for a large group. I'd love to see a bunch of our camp all greet together. :D

[blissfish.livejournal.com]

Awesome!

[danamongden.livejournal.com]

You can come back, but first you must answer me these questions three:

1. What is your burner name?
2. What is your Flipside quest?
3. What is the muzzle velocity of a potato cannon?

Just having fun with you... ;)

:P

[blissfish.livejournal.com]

1. Casey. I'm too lazy (or too high) to remember more syllables.

2. Pass the scotch.

3. I prefer marshmallow cannons. Pants cannons will do in a pinch.

[fulguritus.livejournal.com]

We missed you Saturday! Drop in whenever.
You can work at the info desk!
You could work at sanctuary.

Just ask XTC, she can figure out where you could be.

Love~

[blissfish.livejournal.com]

I very much regret not making it. The foot was hurting, but what's a foot? I have a spare, after all.

I will definitely drop by soon.

I almost gave you an e-hug. I must be tired.

[fulguritus.livejournal.com]

You were meant to stay home. Don't feel grief over it.
We'll have you out and sit by the pond.

love~

I have the perfect job

[xoxoxtc.livejournal.com]

for you -please email me volunteerinfo@burningflipside.com

and the two hugs I got tonight it never felt like you were gone

Re: I have the perfect job

[blissfish.livejournal.com]

Emailed!

I always have hugs for you. :)